Right now?..

I don't think I've told you guys what I've done recently ne?


Well, to be honest, although I've decided to change from Business Management to Marketing, I stopped and thought about it. And well.. I haven't really actually decided for myself which one to take! And I'm also in midst of deciding where to go; Australia or Japan. UK and US is WAY out of my league!

After having to decide that, I think I'll be looking for a University. TO BE HONEST, this is NOT because of my fangirl side, but I was thinking of Meiji IF I can do the BEST. Yes. The same uni where Yamapi and Koyama went. But... that's only one of the university I know that teaches marketing! (Yamapi took marketing! o_O I didn't know until I watched Hanamaru Cafe. Though, I had a reason taking marketing over business management.. because people would rather give out scholarship for marketing than business management!)

Well, as much as I like to think about it, I'm leaving that a bit for laters, after I've really decided.

Recently, I'm trying to save up money to buy myself a few stuff. But mainly, I'm saving up for two stuff; a new external hard disk, and also a digital camcorder that runs on rechargeable batteries and uses memory card! I saw one being sold at roughly.. $900+?! Well, I want to use that cam to record interviews and shows by otsurohae, but also, I want to record whenever I get out overseas or something! You know, if I happen to go to university, I want to record what I see, post it on the blog where my friends and family can see where I am, and what I do. :D Yeah, that'll be nice!

But having to save is hard task for me, so I'm limiting the money I spend on stationery, food and all. Though CDs are a MUST to buy yo! Put aside what I want, I find that probably I'd need to sell all the mangas I have, ne. It's not like I read them anymore! And they ARE using up two-fifth of my cupboard! If I sell them, I can boost up my savings, and also get more space!

Which makes me feel that I have to clean and organize my room too! My books are now scattered around my room and I have a hard time trying to gather my school books! Well, I should be able to do that soon I hope. I'll just need to put away all mangas and CDs! Then to clean out my stationery drawer!

Well, that's all for now! I'm thinking of adding a bit of colour to my room! Even though plain, all the whites make me think that.. it's an unlively cold room.

KaoCHO's Series of Confessions (05)

There's been a few things on my mind. It's been there for quite some time, and I rarely worry about these stuff. Because my mind is always occupied, I usually stare at random stuff, making even more random comments or thoughts about it. Though, people tell me not to think about it much, or rush things. I just can't help but feel that I really need to..

1) One of my worries, is what career I'll be taking. For this past 14.. uhmmm 15 years of my life, I never really thought about what I want to do. 'I want to be a zoologist!' 'I want to be a comic artist!' 'I want to be a..' and so on. I never thought business would interest me, since I've always sat back and said that its not like it'd be a problem in the future. But here I am, staring down the path of business. I haven't taken a step yet, and I'm already facing a minor problem.

'If only I didn't cancel out POA..' I'm already regretting changing my electives before I handed in the form. I guess I was thinking that Computer Studies are what people are looking for nowadays.

I'm still worrying. They'll be using 'o' level results, not my 'a' level results. I'm already taking a wrong turn in my education/career path.. I just hope I can pay for that when I'm in Year 12. Though, now I' m slightly worried about what subjects I'd need to take. HE told me to go to ICC, but I'm not really sure of what to do. Where is ICC anyway? o_O;;

Now, the last step is to choose a proper University, and a way to get a scholarship. As far as I'm concerned, my dad told me US was the best place. HE told me UK was the best place. BUT I DON'T WANT TO GO THAT FAR AWAY! T__T The next one was Australia. Okay, fine. I settled for Australia as my first option. Even though Japan is my 2nd, I still want to learn the language. :P (In case I get an Arashi DVD with no english subtitles, I can still understand it anyhow! Same does to Doramas, and Anime, and Manga. :P I don't have to wait for an english-translated one!)

2) My 2nd concern, is surprisingly about DOMO. I'm still in midst of thinking whether I should quit completely or play as little as once every two weeks. Though, the main problem is the guild. I still want to keep in touch with them.. but leaving is a hard thing to do! If they asked me, I would want to use exams as my reason, but I doubt Iph would want to believe that.

I guess, I have my other reasons. When he gave me the cold shoulder, and kept saying how no one would care if I left or what.. I guess that just gave an impact on the wound Ish gave me. 'Ah, I guess I'm just another name in your address book..' That's what I'm feeling now.

As my reason was partly because I enjoyed talking to him.. but now that he treats me like a complete stranger with his words, 'You being online or offline is still no fun to me,' must be his way of saying, 'It doesn't make a difference.' And all I did was went on and asked how everyone was doing.. He didn't have to actually tell me off. That time, my happy mood just went down. "What did I do wrong..?" I wondered. No.. it's not what I did. Its all because his lover hasn't went on for 4 days. Wow.. and this just made me realize why Tai and BubbleTea and Ryu was mean to him.. I still slightly pained by this, but I tried not getting it to me. I don't want anyone to blame Iph for this.. but I want to let him know that HIS WORDS are NOT just words.

3) Third concern.. is what that's been in my mind quite longer than the rest (except for number 4)... Nacchan knows what it is.. but for now, I can't quite find the words to say it..

"Is he being serious or just playing with me?" That's what I'm thinking of a lot nowadays. :P And that's all I'll be saying about number 3!

4) This isn't really a concern, but nonetheless, it kept in my mind.

"Everlasting Friendship"

I agree with Nacchan. What Ian said sounded like we all were going to leave.. And it made me very concern.. maybe, to the point that I was thinking, 'Will this be an everlasting friendship?' I sure hope so.

PS, number 4 was a bit of a rush, so was number 3. x__x I'm not supposed to be on, but I need to get rid of two drafts!

Me to You; Ian (01)

x___x Yeah, Ian, I REALLY agree with you.

:P I was foolish enough to think everything would be fine if I just went to Japan because of all those. XD;; I don't just aim for Australia. I know I want to go there and all.. but I want to go somewhere not far from Asia and STILL be in English. :P

Teacher said it was just the slang I have to worry about. But I'm worried about 'o' levels as well. x__x I shouldn't have changed my electives from POA to Computer Studies when I handed in the damn form. Lol.. But what can I do? :P If I took POA, I had chances of being put in Year 11B though.

x___x As for now, I might still face a problem on the right course. But I know I'll be more into business. XD;; And since that 'maxx-ATE' bakery dream is STILL on, I'm going for Business Management. ^^

Though, I do want to stay in Japan someday. ^^ But I'll make sure it'll just be a short vacation with you guys! Ahahaha.

Me to You; Nacchan (02)

;P I WOULD comment, but.. I just get this feeling it won't work since I'm pretty much downloading something. x__x;; A game I got invited to..

XD;; I heard that joke before! But, I didn't get the last part... Well, only until now. XD;; I understand it now! *laughs*

:P The Ian thing?

..I heard. From her blog! XD;; Yeah, I wished I could have seen that!! A clueless Ian. :o

x__x;; Really? I just gave out random songs. Though, I'd really recommend you to listen to 'Niji' by Aqua Timez & Missing, Monster, Cake and Ale and Everlasting Laugh, Lost World, Funny Bunny, ALL of them by ELLEGARDEN. XD;; Do you want more of RIP Slyme? :P I'm planning to download their music videos.

XD;; Well, I DID mention that QUITE a number of times in my blogs. :x But it's hidden in a way that people have to ask me. (Though, quite a number of them asked me if it was Assie, but blah. XD;; Tired of answering that question!)

:x I blog quite a lot to be honest. Since a few years back. I think I have about.. 5 different blogs? Oh, that's including this one! ...maybe. XD;;

:P We should just move Atashi (which.. we HAVE to change the name now) here. x__x And make another blog where Atashi members uhmm post their stuff! But still.. I don't know about you though. x__x :P We should include Ian too! And definitely change the name. x__x Since we're not exactly doing an Arashi-based club anymore..

e__e And since Kuroru placed the RIIDA position to me.. *sighs*

:3 After 'o' levels, we should do a LOT of stuff! Trips, and all. XD;; If we miss PROM, we can go next year. x___x;; For Kuroru, that is. You don't want to go, right? x__x;;

:P Let's have parties as well? Beach parties, GOSH I WOULD WANT THAT! ...but I need to buy a swimming suit... ;P Let's talk about it after Mid Year Exams though. ^^

( And at this point, I plan on dragging Mr. IL&MC along if he was free. XD;; )

KaoCHO's Series of Confessions (04)

Yeah, I'm pretty much concerned about what course I'll be taking in the future. Last year, I just rushed by saying I want to study Business in Japan. But all that was in vain because all I wanted was just to go and live there and all those Arashi stuff.

But now, when I think of it; do I still want to?

I know I like Arashi still and all, but I'm not as desperate to get there now. And my main concern is what course I want to take, and what career I want to pursue in the future.

As much as I'm concerned, I don't mind Zoologist, but I doubt I can do it. x__x;; So I'm pretty much stuck with business. Though maybe I'm not taking business now, the only business course I'm interested in is Business Management, or even Tourism (which is not exactly business).

I got so worried, and I asked Renn, which university was the best, but mainly in English Language. He stated China was best, but then their English is not so good, so he said Australia was the best choice.

I was fine with it, since Australia was my first choice, Japan being 2nd. I've looked at the Universities, and I'm only sticking to one place, which is Brisbane, or Gold Coast. GAH! Though, I'm still not sure...

..I think I need to consult HIM for now. x__x;;

I wonder if Business Management is the best choice for me..

Interesting experiment! (01)

:o Well, today for recess, Nacchan made us gather around (me, Ian, Nacchan & Kuroru) in a circle, so we did.

She wanted to do an experiment, so we all just agreed to it.

Firstly, we had to hold the sides of our skirt. When Nacchan said, 'Okay, pull it with as much force as you can! Like.. you're trying to rip your skirt apart!' I was just staring, with a 'What?' face, but I did it. We all did. Ian stopped after 10 seconds and watched us. 'Okay, we have to do it for 40 seconds!' Nacchan stated.

She counted down until 40 seconds (though I mistaken it for 30 seconds). Then she told us to release our grip...

...it was an odd sensation!

Like your arm was floating up! XD;; Weird, I know!

When we sat of the exams, Nacchan kept doing it. o___o Its like me with that 'Nobuta Pawaa' dansu, and the Akira 'Kon kon' thing! *laughs* Actually, I thought she was weird.. but who am I to say it?!

Well, that's all for now! XD;; Short posts for today, since.. I'm trying to study and all. x__x;;

( :P And no, I will not rip my skirt apart for you, Mr. IL&MC. )

Fourth Day of Mid Year Exams!

x__x It's now the 4th day that we attended our exams. Though there's more, I'm only going according to the ones I'm taking.

Today; we had Maths 'D' Paper I, and English Language Paper I.

For Maths, it was tougher than I thought, and I tired out my hand from writing too much and too fast. x__x Even my handwriting was smaller than usual.. because teacher didn't give enough space! I had to cramp everything in the small space. I made little mistakes here and there, and with half an hour to spare, I just drew on my paper (which I was forced to erase off!)

After 30 minutes of rest, we had our English Language Paper I. It's composition. GAWD, and you know how the teacher is! She picks on some students, and I suffer from her nagging on how boring my work is. e___e

As we were doing the exam, I stared at the questions. It was hard to choose between; Trust and the last question. Eventually I chose the last one instead. It was a rush work, and my hand writing was smaller than usual, and a lot messier. x__x;; It began to hurt after two paragraphs! Imagine how much I stopped after two pages full of the composition!

When it came to section B, ARGH, I swear I would have stranggled myself there. x__x Report on coordinating a Year-End trip for our level. One of the main points was, 'Location and its importance.' I just stared at that. o_o I didn't know what to write of.. and if I did... what was its importance?

Yeah, it pretty much sucked for me; having to write crap and boring stuff that'll cure your insomnia-problems, and also my wrist and finger.

x___x Well, that's all for now.

KaoCHO is SERIOUS!!

>;o Now I have the mood to study!!

YEEEEAAAYY!!

MINNA-SAN YEEEEAAAYY!!!

*dances around from Arashi style to the Pika Pika Dansu ( KaoCHO Version )*

x__x Though...

My back aches. ;-;

Aaaaahhhh!! XD;;

Damn iiiit.. ;P It feels as if Mr. IL&MC was about to steal my heart! (or maybe he already did..)

Yeaaayy STUDY STUDY STUDY~

o_o I suddenly got the will to do everything.

A Day at Tuition / Night Classes!

:P Well, I came only slightly late, but I noticed that teacher changed her carpet and the arrangement of her living room. XD;; Now we had more space, and all. We had to use the other table and I sat at my old seat when I went there for tuition last year.

Padi, Buggy, FF, Chris, Zushi, & San are my 'classmates' now.

I came, wearing another weird outfit; light green spaghetti-strap top, a long creamy-white vest, jeans, and a brown scarf around my neck. 'Scarf again?' Padi started on. XD Hahah, well, it's only TWICE I wore a scarf. x__x

We had to wait for an always late Zushi. As the seating arrangement was like; San, FF, Kao, Padi, Buggy, Chris, Padi sat at the end of the table, in between me and Buggy (so we sat across each other). 'Oh dear, SPECIAL Padi,' I said. Haha. 'Special' was the term we used for each other after listening to Special Fred. :P A funny and nice song btw.

They then made a comment on how I always sat beside FF. Hmmm.. when I think of it, when we were in year 8, he WAS sitting in front of me, and during year 9, he was supposed to be sitting behind me, but I moved since it was far from the board. During year 10.. wow, I don't remember! But now, in Year 11, he's sitting behind me. x__x

In exams, we usually sit beside each other since his name came after mine. And tuition was just an empty seat. Yeah, well, back to the main topic. They commented on how I always sat beside him. 'Well yeah, sure,' I just ignored it.

But then in the middle, where me and him are constantly in an argument and all. They're all like, 'AWWWW, a perfect couple!' AGH stop it. XD;; Buggy even stated that I liked FF before. o_O Did I? Lol. Then Buggy said he'll start teasing us together again. GAAAH!! D'X I don't want to be teased with him!

Later on, I asked Padi who had the book. STILL with Jevs. 'I hope he doesn't laugh at my qualities..' I was worried if he did. Then it popped in my mind. 'Oh, and Mr. IL&MC reads my blog! I'm surprised. I wonder if he read all.' I said. We went on a bit on that topic, until they commented that my cheeks were blushing red. T__T I wonder when they'll stop it..

Because we talked so much, teacher was like 'PADI! Have you done your work? What? Still at number 1?' yeah and they got into trouble, while I was the slowest overall. XD;; When she asked me what number was I doing. Everyone laughed and answered, 'Number 1!' They were ALL expecting me to get into trouble, but all teacher said, 'Oh, Padi, you guys are talking too much lah!' LOL. I didn't get into trouble at ALL. :P Padi, Buggy and Chris went on and on about how SOME people never get into trouble. XD;;

Hahaha..

Well, that's all for now. x__x

Me to You; Nacchan (01)

:P Sorry, I guess the comment thing is being a pain the CHIKA-POMPOM!

XD;; Well, this is a pretty short entry, that was SUPPOSED to be a comment. But who cares?

^^ I know. Well, it was fun then! Though, I didn't expect you guys to go crazy over Arashi then. x___x;;

:P I may still talk about them, and if it annoys you, just tell me. I can stop. XD;; My reason for mentioning them is probably because they're craved something on my heart. Because of them and you guys, I'm able to change my views of certain things. ^^

I managed to see what my grandparents might have felt, and maybe the views of Idols, and that maybe not ALL of them are so stuck-up. :P I've also learnt to cook korokke and all. And yeah, I really see them as Idols. ^^

Plus, if I didn't know them, I might have been a very depressed and emo person by now. ;-;

:P Chika-pompom really helps! Hahahaha! JOKING!

*thinks* hmmm.. maybe I should do Chika-pompom to Mr. IL&MC... NAW I'm joking!! He might get perverted after that. *laughs*

XD Well, now I have a lot of things to smile about; Arashi, Friends... Mr. IL&MC. :P I smile more often than last year! :( I was then SOOO moody! Gosh, I hope it doesn't happen to me anymore...

....unless Mr. IL&MC breaks my heart, or... I get left out.. or... you guys leave... or....*rambles on*

:P Nyah, now I shall hug my parents who are very much asleep now! ^^

Paaarreeennntttsss~~~

My parents are back.

XD;; Their flight got delayed, so...

that pretty much explained why I went home laaaate. x__x;;

And surprisingly I got chipper and hyper-ish. XD;;

Maybe because they bought me chocos? Hahaha, I don't know. x___x

These two has probably gotta be my shortest two entries ever! I'll be posting later ons when I've got an idea what to write.

;-; Nothing much happened today though. *goes and snoozes on mat*

Third Day of Mid-Year Exams!!

Now, it was Physics Practicals. ^^

x___x I died, knowing it started at 7.30AM, so I had to leave early.

When we got there, we stood and waited by the Canteen. Then a minute later, our Unreasonable Add-Maths teacher came and scolded us for being there. He told us to go to the Year 11B's classroom, and when some of us wanted to go to the waiting shed, he told them to go in.

So we went in, sat down, studying, only to get scolded by him AGAIN and told EVERYONE to get out. So we did. GOSH, where ARE we supposed to go now? We had to wait under the effin hot waiting shed, and the sunlight really messed up our sight. Now that we can't read, nor study.

XD;; Everyone was so BLAH.

Exams? ;-; Don't bother. XD;; I don't want to mention it.

I just messed up in the 2nd question. x__x;;

KaoCHO's Plans with Friends (02)

:o Okay, maybe NOT plans, but this happened at school today. ;P Trying to embarrass yah, Kuroru!

We were rambling on about our blogs and all, and when we came to Ian's, Nacchan and I kept pestering her what '-k' meant at the back of her URL. x__x She won't say a word, and we just staaaaared at her. :P She got slightly irritated, but once we got on a different topic, Nacchan asked again.

:o Kuroru told Nacchan, she told me what K meant.

We all yelled out random words.

"KANASAI!" Lol, that just mean bullshit in Chinese.

We went on to teacher's names, and.. o_O

"Teacher Kasuma!" Kuroru cried out.

Nacchan and Ian was like, 'Kasuma? Who's that? It sounds familiar.'

'o______o SINCE WHEN IS MY DAD A TEACHER?!' I yelled out.

"OH YEAH, THAT'S KAORU'S DAD'S NAME!!" We all laughed at Kuroru. o_O When was my DAD ever a teacher? XD;; It'll be creepy if he was.

x__x He might be having a gamer's talk with the guys, or go like, 'Are you Kaoru's boyfriend?!' x__x But he's not like that. XD;; That would be me. My dad would more likely be... like... o__o.. I can't imagine my dad as a teacher. XD;;

We continued to ramble on, and Ian gave us this sticker that says our nicknames.

'Kacho-Maxx' o_o I was like.. 'Kacho?' XD Yeah she forgot the 'O'. It sounds lot like something in Pokemon! 'Kacho! Ka ka ka choooooo!' Lmao. And Ian would be like, 'KaCHO! I choose YOU!' And I'll jump out of my bed, 'Ka-CHOOOOOOO!' Lol, I'm being lame like Kuroru now. ;P

Well, that's all for now. x___x Btw, anyone ever farted on an uncooked chicken before?

:P I now wonder how many regular readers I have;
Ian, Nacchan, Asshie, Nickt... & apparently Mr. IL&MC too. o_O

Now I wonder how much he read. XD;;

Second Day of Mid-Year Exams!!

:'( The first day sucked in a way that chemicals were spilling on me.

But the second day sucked, such that it just SHOWED how terrible my luck in tests and exams are! ~_~ Plus it may also be my English that followed.

I've studied on the kidneys and all, plus a bit about hearts. I was hoping that food tests would come out... but it didn't! x__x I studied slightly on fruits, but.. the one that came out was FLOWERS! GAAAAH!!

Why do I HAVE this terrible luck of studying stuff that DOESN'T come out, or study the wrong STUFF!!? (Lol, refer to Nacchan about the chemistry test where I studied far ahead from the real topic. o_e;;)

;-; I know I'm going to fail this one since I sort of wasted time on thinking about a lot of stuff there. x__x;; And the test tube thing.. I put them into the hot water, instead of putting the hot water in the test tube. I only noticed when I glanced around. 'EEPPPSSS!' I rushed, and all. x___x Overall, my results were horrible. ;-; I didn't even managed to finished the paper! GAAAH!! *kills Mr. IL&MC* o____o... O___O NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!! *kills Asshie now* ........ o_____o NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! *kills... etc.* TT_TT...

I'm really hoping this luck would turn around. x___x;; *prays for it*

KaoCHO's Wonders on Life (04)

Have you ever wondered why some people has great luck in these, and the worst luck in those?

Well, I have been wondering about that. One day, every thing in your life was fine. You swear, it was the best and most enjoying day of your life! Everyone's talking and friends with you, you have a loved one nearby, your entertainment life is amusing, and everything was going the way you liked it to go!

But suddenly, all your luck changed, and everything turned upside down. Gosh, I really hated those moments. When one thing is over, another bad thing happens. It's your worst day EVER!

Usually, it would happen to one person, and one person only at a time. But what happens if everyone in a group of four friends are slowly experiencing it? Life couldn't have been worse. Especially when those problems may have only slight relation to each other. What can we do to come up with 4 different kinds of solutions?

Last year, everything was going so well.. We all became close friends! We enjoyed different stuff! We all made plans! And I thought nothing dramatic could happen like this...

This year, everything changed. Everyone was experiencing a bit of stress for the exams, but that's expected. What we all didn't expect was the problems that laid down in front of us. We all had different paths, and now, we're in the midst of trying to cross a different river, all with different methods.

I know, that this river I'm passing, was nothing like from the past. In the past, my attempts of running away wouldn't fail. And stuff like ignorance would help. But this time, I know those two won't be able to solve anything here. What was I to do?

Right now, everyone of us are screaming, 'Help me... for a bit...' though we may hide those feelings. Even I have to say, I want to scream for help, but I know I can't. We're all occupied with the problems we're facing, and this may be the turning points of some of us. As for me, I'm honestly not sure. Ignoring this fact would just hurt me, but I'm scared of moving on.

I guess I'm those type to, sit back, and watch everything, so I can learn from it. But since I never had much of a friend to rely on during my primary years, and a few years for my secondary years, I never experienced this problem before. It's like a foreign language to me. My parents had taught me what was wrong and what was right in the past, but they had never thought me about these kind of problems I would face.

Though, our main problems are sort of different, yet it's related as it has something to do with studies, or our future. x__x I honestly don't know what else to do, and I'm already stuck in the beginning of the river crossing..

KaoCHO of Today (02) + New Section!

Today ish... 23rd May, 2008, 6.21AM when I started, aaand, it's a Friday!

Mood:
I feel normal, and happy! But STILL distracted. ~___~;;

Social Life:
:P It got me thinking.. (Check KaoCHO's Wonders on Life (03) )

Money Life:
x____x Still have no money life..

Gaming Life:
x____x;; I've stopped going on Kazu, wood sales weren't as great as in the past. :P I stopped after my last sale.

Internet Life:
Blogging habits are down a bit. ^^ Though, now I'm hooked up on Arashi again! ARGH!

Love Life:
x____x;; I'm really not sure about this...

Family Life:
Ha... My parents are away and doesn't know about my Exams..

Study Life:
x____x;; Exams start by tomorrow..

Health:
Still sick, with coughs&sniffles. Though, I don't know if its my body, or my mind which is exhausted.. x__x;; I feel like sleeping a lot..

KaoCHO's Wonders on Life (03)

It's always on my mind; whenever people make mistakes, it was said, that the mistake will teach them not to make it. But for me, all my mistakes happen again and again. x___x; And I've noticed that, whenever I get emo and depressed; its usually when I have friend/social problems. x___x; Which is a pretty sad thing for me, since I don't consider myself having that much friends, but hey.. At least I have a few. ^^;;

My usual mistakes with friends is that, when I find that there was nothing more to talk about.. like no same interest, or the fact that I feel like a total outcast in that group, I just keep silent. A 'hi' may last for a few days, before I stop saying it. x___x; I guess I tend to drift far from my friend after that, and a few weeks later, we're friends again.. but end up drifting far again. x___x; It happens quite a lot to me. I guess my interest are never normal.. XD;;

^^ Having friends are good, just that, whenever they talk about something foreign to you, you don't know what to say. And when I don't, I keep silent for a long time. These things like, 'Books', 'Karate', 'MCR' and all... and they talk about stuff that happened when I wasn't there. Maybe, Zushi and Zul and all, they have other friends, but I only rely on friends who has different interests than me.. I feel more of an outcast. Both in society and in class. AND in my group of friends.. So whenever, someone asked me, if I had to choose between all my friends, who would I go with? I guess I'd pick Asshie. Since he pretty much likes stuff that I do.. like... bands, and all. ^^ But it'll be selfish of me.. So I never would want to answer that.. so if a friend of mine choose me, I'll just go along with it.

I guess that would be a reason why I go online. Because I know I can meet more people with same interest as me, or someone who I can get along well. I wonder if you could say it's my field of freedom since I'm not scared to show people how I really am. XD;; x___x;

Mistakes are what teaches people from making them. x___x; I don't think my mistakes can teach me anything. XD;; It's not easy to avoid, if it was part of your personality, like mine. x___x; I honestly think personalities can get in people's way. In a lot of ways.

Music: La Tormenta 2004 (By Arashi)
Dorama: None
Games: DOMO (Kaoru&Kazu are dormant and resting :P)
MSN: Online/Away

Time: 22nd May 2008, 1.20PM

TOM'CHI ian's BURP'DAY!! (02)

TOM'CHI ian's BURP'DAY!! (01)

:') It is now time to celebrate your birthday, Ian. :P Let all the bad past go, and start new memories! We may not walk on the same path, but we walk the same journey to our goal! Our paths may cross, and we would have to make the best of it!

People may call it 'sweet sixteen' but to me, it is different for everyone else. :P I may have no turned 16 yet (That's half a year left for me! DX), but I know that every year it's different! ^^;; I just have a feeling I'm going to get heartbroken at some point, or maybe the return of the painful love! XD;; ^^ But it may be no different from you. Your case with Karate, and my case with.. well... something. ^^;;

I know, that perhaps, there are some bad days, and you feel like falling to the ground and cry. If you feel like it, please do it. It'll help a lot. You may call people 'smarter', 'nicer', 'something-er', well, for me, if I was smart, you are no different. :P I may be smart in Maths, but there is something I'm not good at. Just because some people are better, it doesn't make you the worst. :P

From what I think, I think what HE was trying to say was. It doesn't matter of what other people thinks. 'Not bad,' is just a comment. Perhaps it bothers you, but to me, it's not like that person knows me well. So why listen to her? Because you're still in it, means you like it. What you do, doesn't depend on how well you do it. It depends on how much you like, and enjoy it. As well as, knowing it yourself. If you feel that maybe it wasn't your best, you wouldn't know. :P You just have to try better! Use this moment as an encouragement to pursue your training.

Your parents may just say no to that and this, but from what I see, maybe this is their way of saying, 'We're concerned about your studies.' But maybe after O levels, you can continue training after that. :) So don't let it get to you. Just take this as how I always play games. Anyone would be concerned, right? XD;;

Oh, I'm sorry for not writing in the card. No one GAVE me the card, and from what I see, there were no more space left. x___x;; So, like Buggy, I'm giving you my own greeting. ^^ I don't trust you with a card. :P You might just lose it, or flushed it down the toilet.

Correct me if I'm wrong. x___x;; I haven't been concerned with my friends' matters, when I had my own matters to solve two weeks ago. And still trying to cure this sleeping sickness, and also, my gaming addiction to DOMO, and a possible heart wreck. x___x;;


Music: ロストワールド (By Ellegarden)
Dorama: None (Wanting to watch HYD The Final!)
Games: DOMO (is on!)
MSN: Online/Busy

Time: 21st May 2008, 1.40PM

KaoCHO of Today (01)

:( Unfortunately, I've added a new section called, 'KaoCHO of Today' which features what's going on in my life now that concerns me. ^^ It's more likely supposed to be a short and brief explanation.

Mood:
I feel normal, and happy! But slightly distracted. :'(

Social Life:
:) Yay, I'm talking with Mayven again! :P That's a good thing, right?

Money Life:
~___~;; I never had a money life..

Gaming Life:
:o I've stopped gaming, but I still go on my mule, Kazu, to collect stuff and sell them. It's all automatic, so practically I'm not playing. :P But I do chat with my friends.

Internet Life:
So hooked up on listening to Ellegarden. x___x;; I want to listen to more of it! And also blogging has once more become a part of my life.. ~_~ Damn it.

Love Life:
*heart beats faster* @____@;;; .... Well.. I have no say in this.. :P But.. I DO like someone. *slight blush* x////x;; Someone you wouldn't know! Uhhh.. yay? And definitely someone not in my school.

Family Life:
XP My parents are away for 2 weeks?

Study Life:
@__@;; Still distracted, and exams are within the week!! AGH NOOOO!!