There's been a few things on my mind. It's been there for quite some time, and I rarely worry about these stuff. Because my mind is always occupied, I usually stare at random stuff, making even more random comments or thoughts about it. Though, people tell me not to think about it much, or rush things. I just can't help but feel that I really need to..
1) One of my worries, is what career I'll be taking. For this past 14.. uhmmm 15 years of my life, I never really thought about what I want to do. 'I want to be a zoologist!' 'I want to be a comic artist!' 'I want to be a..' and so on. I never thought business would interest me, since I've always sat back and said that its not like it'd be a problem in the future. But here I am, staring down the path of business. I haven't taken a step yet, and I'm already facing a minor problem.
'If only I didn't cancel out POA..' I'm already regretting changing my electives before I handed in the form. I guess I was thinking that Computer Studies are what people are looking for nowadays.
I'm still worrying. They'll be using 'o' level results, not my 'a' level results. I'm already taking a wrong turn in my education/career path.. I just hope I can pay for that when I'm in Year 12. Though, now I' m slightly worried about what subjects I'd need to take. HE told me to go to ICC, but I'm not really sure of what to do. Where is ICC anyway? o_O;;
Now, the last step is to choose a proper University, and a way to get a scholarship. As far as I'm concerned, my dad told me US was the best place. HE told me UK was the best place. BUT I DON'T WANT TO GO THAT FAR AWAY! T__T The next one was Australia. Okay, fine. I settled for Australia as my first option. Even though Japan is my 2nd, I still want to learn the language. :P (In case I get an Arashi DVD with no english subtitles, I can still understand it anyhow! Same does to Doramas, and Anime, and Manga. :P I don't have to wait for an english-translated one!)
2) My 2nd concern, is surprisingly about DOMO. I'm still in midst of thinking whether I should quit completely or play as little as once every two weeks. Though, the main problem is the guild. I still want to keep in touch with them.. but leaving is a hard thing to do! If they asked me, I would want to use exams as my reason, but I doubt Iph would want to believe that.
I guess, I have my other reasons. When he gave me the cold shoulder, and kept saying how no one would care if I left or what.. I guess that just gave an impact on the wound Ish gave me. 'Ah, I guess I'm just another name in your address book..' That's what I'm feeling now.
As my reason was partly because I enjoyed talking to him.. but now that he treats me like a complete stranger with his words, 'You being online or offline is still no fun to me,' must be his way of saying, 'It doesn't make a difference.' And all I did was went on and asked how everyone was doing.. He didn't have to actually tell me off. That time, my happy mood just went down. "What did I do wrong..?" I wondered. No.. it's not what I did. Its all because his lover hasn't went on for 4 days. Wow.. and this just made me realize why Tai and BubbleTea and Ryu was mean to him.. I still slightly pained by this, but I tried not getting it to me. I don't want anyone to blame Iph for this.. but I want to let him know that HIS WORDS are NOT just words.
3) Third concern.. is what that's been in my mind quite longer than the rest (except for number 4)... Nacchan knows what it is.. but for now, I can't quite find the words to say it..
"Is he being serious or just playing with me?" That's what I'm thinking of a lot nowadays. :P And that's all I'll be saying about number 3!
4) This isn't really a concern, but nonetheless, it kept in my mind.
"Everlasting Friendship"
I agree with Nacchan. What Ian said sounded like we all were going to leave.. And it made me very concern.. maybe, to the point that I was thinking, 'Will this be an everlasting friendship?' I sure hope so.
PS, number 4 was a bit of a rush, so was number 3. x__x I'm not supposed to be on, but I need to get rid of two drafts!
1) One of my worries, is what career I'll be taking. For this past 14.. uhmmm 15 years of my life, I never really thought about what I want to do. 'I want to be a zoologist!' 'I want to be a comic artist!' 'I want to be a..' and so on. I never thought business would interest me, since I've always sat back and said that its not like it'd be a problem in the future. But here I am, staring down the path of business. I haven't taken a step yet, and I'm already facing a minor problem.
'If only I didn't cancel out POA..' I'm already regretting changing my electives before I handed in the form. I guess I was thinking that Computer Studies are what people are looking for nowadays.
I'm still worrying. They'll be using 'o' level results, not my 'a' level results. I'm already taking a wrong turn in my education/career path.. I just hope I can pay for that when I'm in Year 12. Though, now I' m slightly worried about what subjects I'd need to take. HE told me to go to ICC, but I'm not really sure of what to do. Where is ICC anyway? o_O;;
Now, the last step is to choose a proper University, and a way to get a scholarship. As far as I'm concerned, my dad told me US was the best place. HE told me UK was the best place. BUT I DON'T WANT TO GO THAT FAR AWAY! T__T The next one was Australia. Okay, fine. I settled for Australia as my first option. Even though Japan is my 2nd, I still want to learn the language. :P (In case I get an Arashi DVD with no english subtitles, I can still understand it anyhow! Same does to Doramas, and Anime, and Manga. :P I don't have to wait for an english-translated one!)
2) My 2nd concern, is surprisingly about DOMO. I'm still in midst of thinking whether I should quit completely or play as little as once every two weeks. Though, the main problem is the guild. I still want to keep in touch with them.. but leaving is a hard thing to do! If they asked me, I would want to use exams as my reason, but I doubt Iph would want to believe that.
I guess, I have my other reasons. When he gave me the cold shoulder, and kept saying how no one would care if I left or what.. I guess that just gave an impact on the wound Ish gave me. 'Ah, I guess I'm just another name in your address book..' That's what I'm feeling now.
As my reason was partly because I enjoyed talking to him.. but now that he treats me like a complete stranger with his words, 'You being online or offline is still no fun to me,' must be his way of saying, 'It doesn't make a difference.' And all I did was went on and asked how everyone was doing.. He didn't have to actually tell me off. That time, my happy mood just went down. "What did I do wrong..?" I wondered. No.. it's not what I did. Its all because his lover hasn't went on for 4 days. Wow.. and this just made me realize why Tai and BubbleTea and Ryu was mean to him.. I still slightly pained by this, but I tried not getting it to me. I don't want anyone to blame Iph for this.. but I want to let him know that HIS WORDS are NOT just words.
3) Third concern.. is what that's been in my mind quite longer than the rest (except for number 4)... Nacchan knows what it is.. but for now, I can't quite find the words to say it..
"Is he being serious or just playing with me?" That's what I'm thinking of a lot nowadays. :P And that's all I'll be saying about number 3!
4) This isn't really a concern, but nonetheless, it kept in my mind.
"Everlasting Friendship"
I agree with Nacchan. What Ian said sounded like we all were going to leave.. And it made me very concern.. maybe, to the point that I was thinking, 'Will this be an everlasting friendship?' I sure hope so.
PS, number 4 was a bit of a rush, so was number 3. x__x I'm not supposed to be on, but I need to get rid of two drafts!
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