KaoCHO's Series of Confessions (02)

x___x I had this feeling before.. you know.. :P With Roxas and all.. Hahaha.

Well, usually, my confessions are related to stuff like.. problems and all. x__x Well, for me now, it's a problem. XD;; I'm suffering heart ache! *audience gasps*

....no.. seriously.. ^^;;

x__x The Roxas thing was years ago, and I don't know WHY I even liked him. But here I am, having the same feelings.. 'It's just a crush!' I told people. GAH, but do crushes hurt THIS bad? ^^;; Maybe the big ones do..

Here I am, sitting down, trying not to think about it, but I don't know. 'Is this just a crush?' I keep asking myself. I've unknowingly told my tuition mates (Padi & Chris) that I like people born in the year of the Dogs and Horse, and commenting on how egotistic Horses are.

Then one day, when I told Padi when we were watching Arashi on my PSP (x__x Wanna be distracted here), 'Oh actually, when I was writing the list, I was thinking of Arashi members, and a friend of mine!' And she was like, 'Oh, do you LIKE him?' BAM! I started stuttering like crazy, 'W-What? Noooo What? EH? No! What makes you think that!!' And I didn't notice how much I was blushing. Padi then KNEW I DID like him. '...damn it..' That was what I was thinking.

When we were sitting in school, studying for the Chemistry Practicals, she asked me a few questions, like.. how he was like. "Proud, egotistic, full of himself... but nice, friendly and honest," and I just grinned at her. She stared at me. "Egotistic.. Are you talking about the guy born in the year of the Horse? Oh my god, you ARE!" '...ah....' was what I said.. and then I ran to the back, blushing madly. x___x

GAH when I think of it, I blush a lot at that topic. ;-; And I end up having my heart beat rapidly. x___x One of the weird-ism behind this as well, I get overly excited when he's going on and all. 'Yaaaaay!' and all. XD;; But when he's not on, I'm usually, 'Hmm, okay.' Normal. But when he IS, its like I'm all, 'Hahahaha *laughs* Yeaaaayyyy!! *huggles*' to random people, it scares me. o_e

^^;; Overall, my depressions are on when I don't talk to him much, but I'll smile when I think about it. x___x;; There's more stuff.. but I'm just going to sit back and think about it.

But, one question though,

Is this just a crush? Or can it lead to 'love'?

^^;; Just a question.. Because, for me.. I honestly don't know!

NOTE:

:P No, this is not really the problem. ^^;;